A decision has been made. It was a hard decision and it took a long time.
I'm never going back there.
I got an email and I buckled down from the emotional strain ONE email caused. There were tears. Tears of anger, tears of fear, tears of confusion. A suggestion was made that I "come in and do some paperwork." My response? Similar to that of a five year old - you can't make me go in there. And I meant it. Walking into that tower? You couldn't pay me to do it.
One email. The knots in my stomach didn't go away for three days afterward. I can't go back there. I can't fathom going back there. I don't want to, but more than that? I don't think I can go back there.
I am strong, at times. But in this case, in this situation, I am weak. I am unable to cope with this and I'm going to shut down. There are some people in my life who understand this decision, others who are confused, and others who think it's cowardly to not go and "fill out the paperwork." I don't need validation. I need to move on with my life and not have a looming harm overhead.
But a decision has been made. And that decision makes me feel good.
Can I ask what decision? Cause I'll totally support your decision to not go back.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you made the decision, regardless of what it was about. It doesn't matter if others are confused or think you're being cowardly. It's your decision to make not theirs, and I'm happy that you're feeling good about it. You have my full support no matter what you decide!
ReplyDeleteI for one *totally* understand, unless of course I am mistaken about your intention.
ReplyDeleteIf your case is anything like mine, and it sounds like it is, you feel 100% better putting the Tower behind you and getting on with your life.
That sounds intense! I'm glad you made a decision.
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